Things are good. Really, really good.
Why? It's official. As of 5-21 we are OFFICIALLY on the referral list for a child. How amazing is that? That means that, at any time, we could get a phone call about our child.
I dream about that day all of the time, and I guess now I had better make sure my phone always has a charge. I am pretty horrible about having my phone die all the time (in fact it's actually dead right now as I type this, but, I digress.) The point is, it feels amazing to be waiting on a phone call. On our sweet baby. My heart leaps at the thought of that beautiful day, when we will get to put a face to our missing piece. Sweet, sweet baby Harvey.
As excited as I am, my heart also breaks for the birth mother. What will be one of the most exciting days of my life, to get that phone call; will probably be one of her worst. I've been thinking about her a lot lately, and my heart aches. I wonder, is she alive, or has poverty and disease already stolen her from her child? If she is alive, is she hopeful about her choice, or heartbroken, or both?
It makes you wonder- how horrible would life have be for me to ever even have to consider giving Eva to another family? How hungry, and broke, and weary and helpless do you need to be before you make the most selfless sacrifice in the world for your child-to send them away forever?
Adoption is a product of a broken world. In a perfect world, adoption wouldn't be necessary. Parents wouldn't leave, wars wouldn't destroy families, and poverty wouldn't destroy lives.
Our world, however is broken, and there is no ignoring that. These children need homes, love, family and a chance at life.
It’s one of the most sorrowful and beautiful pictures ever.
I read this quote on an adoption forum and I just love it. Yes, this child will be our child, but this child also has a birth mother, a birth mother who has either met with death, or has had to make the biggest sacrifice of her entire life.
He is mine in a way that he will never be hers, yet he is hers in a way that he will never be mine, and so together, we are motherhood.
-Desha Wood
I hope we have the chance to meet here on Earth or in Heaven some day. Two women both filled to the brim with love for a child.
FINANCES AND PROGRESS:
As you can probably guess, our home study is 100% done. Tomorrow we will get the notarized copies and ship them off to the hands that will eventually place us with our child. I can't tell you what a relief it is to have to major thing checked off of the list.
FEW!
We also had a SERIOUS nibble on the boat, and we should know if they want to buy it in the next few days! Be praying for God’s will in the matter and nothing else!
Also, if you know anyone who LOVES golf, send them over here! We have a 2005 Masters hat autographed by Tiger Woods and it is PSA certified.
Lastly, the Wheelbarrow Walk for Adoption is quickly approaching, keep spreading the word! <3
That was just beautiful Ashleigh! So glad that you are so perceptive to understand all sides of adoption.
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