Get Back on The Horse

What a crazy emotional process adoption is. While we were, obviously, sad and shocked to learn that we lost the twins-we both are choosing to find joy in the situation. God is good all of the time, and we had been praying that if they were not for us, that the door would close. Though it isn't the answer we were hoping for, it was still an answer to prayer.

I still have their picture hanging in my house, and I can't stand to take it down. I wish, more than anything, that I could simply hug them one time. Let them know we were ready and willing to love them. I am so overjoyed that they have a family who will do that, though.

I know (more than I've ever known anything) that God has gone before us to pave the way. Even though sometimes it feels like we will never see the end of the road on this journey, I know we will with the child HE has picked for us.

I gotta tell you, learning patience is a two edged sword. Those of you out there in need of some patience, I would urge you to consider adoption, great for these children, great for cleaning gunk out of your soul.

Other than that, things are still rolling. I can tell you that at the moment we do not have another referral, but, when we do have a referral I will not be sharing it on the blog until we pass a few milestones; possibly including court. It was just too hard to share the beautiful twins, and then have to share the devastating news that sometimes comes with international adoption. Whatever the case is, please continue praying with us and know that we are still moving on our hearts desire strongly!

We have a garage sale in the works, and it's also time to start sending off grant applications! Excited about this for sure!!

I've also decided to start dabbling in some painting. I'm not great by any means, but I think adoption art is a niche thing and I've enjoyed it so far.

Lastly, but most importantly, I really want to take a minute to thank each and every one of you who is on our journey with us. The financial support we've received blows my mind, I still worry about it all of the time, but then God gently reminds me he is behind this-and he does it through all of you.

Thank you, from the very bottom of my heart, for your generous, selfless, compassionate, gracious, loving, giving, donations. They bless not only our journey, but our souls.

Until next time,

TeJay, Ashleigh, Eva and Baby H.